Week #10 PS

I am able to comfortably cross my legs now! :) The little things in life we take for granted - like feeling like a lady!

Bath tub experiance...

Been a long time since it has not hurt some how some way getting into the tub, shaving my legs, shaving my hooha or scrubbing my raggedy heals...

I had another break thru folks! hehehe...

I was able to comfortably do all of the above and even was able to take a sneak peak of my hooha that I haven't seen in a cpl years now! ooooo...

PS I didn't suffocate my ol'man with my thighs either! Sex was muy bueno!

Week #9 My wheels are a changing!

As long as I could remember my thighs were always on the bigger side... I did roller-skating when I was in elementary and jr high which always kept my legs toned but still I NEVER enjoyed wearing shorts - long shorts, short shorts, etc.... my thoughts have always been... any bigger, plumper, fluffier size female should not wear shorts any kind of shorts! WHY? Because you never see a chic with thighs be able to walk without them riding up their crotch! Sorry but I think that is so tacky! and unattractive! So, I sworn shorts off all together till yesterday... dun dun dunnnnn... I put on a pair of biker shorts... lol spandex biker shorts... yes I was an other break through... I even asked the ol'man how my thighs looked ( he was a good boy he said I looked good)lol... probably should have stopped me before I went out the house! Anyways...lol I noticed that my inner thighs weren't jiggling as much when I walked! Holly cow batman! It felt so cool! My poony was catching a breeze! lol Now I still think I am not ready for shorts though... lol when I was on the machine they road right up my ass and I looked like I had no shorts on at all... not a pretty site I’m sure! So, meaning of this story for me... hmmm... There is great hope and excitement in my visions of what my body is turning into and it includes shorts!

What I ♥ working out too!

RAPPING UP TWO MONTHS OF TRAINING!

Yesterday evening I came to a realization that this is all well worth every bead of sweat and every tear! I never really tried figuring out what my emotional roller coaster trips were all about... Yes, I've seen the fits that have haunted my mothers life come through and never could figure out how to fix them... 

(Example: One time my grandmother came into town unexpectedly and was staying at the Bellagio -

wanting me to come and see her... needless to say I blew her off cause I felt fat! ARE YOU EFFING KIDDING ME! None of my clothes were fitting right and my hair was a wreck!

Knowing that I only had that one opportunity to go visit her

before she went back to Utah! I'm such a douch!

So, I threw a fit... throwing all my clothes around the room, kicking my shoes across the room and pulling as I'm brushing my hair vigorously, only making my condition worse! Wa wa wa!) 

WOW... reading that back to myself - I would have to say... "Grow the eff up Angela! Take control of YOUR life... no one else can do it but you!" 

Back to what I was trying to get at... lol... so, this whole going to the gym and taking better care of my self is helping my physique to all ends! This feels so amazing - it's frustrating on one hand trying to find the words to describe the emotional part of this whole journey... I'm having a bad case of the I CAN"T WAIT's!

Starting two months ago I weighed in at 241 and this morning - 

this beautiful Friday the 13th morning I pulled in at 221! FABULOUS!

Week #8 Seeing some changes...

1. Sunday morning bowling with the folks and Gina & Matt for mother's day... sweet! I noticed something for the first time... when I would take my three steps to throw the ball - my butt and my thighs weren't smacking together like they were giving my a standing 'O' every time I walked! That was cool!
2. My gym clothes... from my experiences in the past with laundry and washing cotton blended clothing on a regular basis you would come to expect some shrinkage over time... BY GOLLY! I'm not having that problem... lol Shoot I even wash the garments every other day more then the normal person would wash the same piece of clothing! Pretty cool! :)
3. Amber has been my biggest encouragement! Lol go figure I'm been coached by a 9 yr old! So, what made me start this whole adventure was my little Amber telling me one day "Mommy, your fat!" She wasn't being viscous, she was being honest... the look she gave me was out of concern! Kinda creepy how well her and I know each other! Long of the short... the other morning I was getting dressed and she was watching me and she said "Mommy, you don't have to jump when you put your jeans on!"

Starting to feel like this is going to be so worth it when I finally find my groove! I can't wait to go shopping for clothes! I can't wait to be confident enough to walk out the house in a pair of Girl's shorts! I can't wait to be able to wear the sexy underwear my honey so badly wants to see me in! ;) I can't wait to be able to look in the mirror again and not curl my lips in disgust!

LORD I can't wait!

Week #7 Need something amazing to happen

This whole loosing weight is so much work!

I need to be motivated by something cause I always seem to run into this problem... 

I get board after a while and end up quiting what ever it is I am doing... be relationships, projects, hobbies etc.

I'm just in a bla state of mind and I'm kind of lost for words this week...

I hope to have a better week next week! 

Wish me luck World if you can hear me!