Yesterday evening I came to a realization that this is all well worth every bead of sweat and every tear! I never really tried figuring out what my emotional roller coaster trips were all about... Yes, I've seen the fits that have haunted my mothers life come through and never could figure out how to fix them...
(Example: One time my grandmother came into town unexpectedly and was staying at the Bellagio -
wanting me to come and see her... needless to say I blew her off cause I felt fat! ARE YOU EFFING KIDDING ME! None of my clothes were fitting right and my hair was a wreck!
Knowing that I only had that one opportunity to go visit her
before she went back to Utah! I'm such a douch!
So, I threw a fit... throwing all my clothes around the room, kicking my shoes across the room and pulling as I'm brushing my hair vigorously, only making my condition worse! Wa wa wa!)
WOW... reading that back to myself - I would have to say... "Grow the eff up Angela! Take control of YOUR life... no one else can do it but you!"
Back to what I was trying to get at... lol... so, this whole going to the gym and taking better care of my self is helping my physique to all ends! This feels so amazing - it's frustrating on one hand trying to find the words to describe the emotional part of this whole journey... I'm having a bad case of the I CAN"T WAIT's!
Starting two months ago I weighed in at 241 and this morning -
this beautiful Friday the 13th morning I pulled in at 221! FABULOUS!
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